Friday, July 8, 2011

The things I'll never forget

Dear Hubby,

I'll never forget the night we met- how you were wearing that stupid shirt, how you actually wrestled me. How I gave you my number only to find out that you were the one my friend liked- not the guy she was talking to all night. How I thought it was such a shame because you were so cute, but she was my good friend.

I'll never forget the look on your face when I finally ran into you during finals when she was already dating that guy she'd been talking to that night. How I told my friend I was sure you were going to call me that night. How you came over after that exam and brought a 6 pack of yuengling. How you convinced me to blow off my friends to watch nip/tuck at your house that night.

I'll never forget how bad I wanted to leave your house that night when nip/tuck was over. How your neighbors blocked in my car. How my friend pretended she couldn't be the one to drive me home. How as you opened the door to your car for me, I thought "Oh please let this ride be fast".

I'll never forget how the moment you shut your door everything changed. How I fell in love with you sitting in your car talking for hours in my driveway. How embarrassed I was when I kissed you as I was getting out of your car, like it was the most natural thing in the world. How after you walked me to my door and left I told my roommate I'd marry you some day.

I'll never forget our first official date. How you showed up with a bottle of champagne and a rose. How you called the restaurant ahead of time to make sure they had a vegetarian dish for me. How awkward it was when they sat us next to that guy's parents. How you told me you wanted kids some day and how shocked I was to hear a 21 year old say that.

I'll never forget dropping you off to pick up your car, in the rain, before Christmas break. How much I hoped that wouldn't be the last time I saw you. How great it was for us that we got to know each other over the phone. How it was the first time I had waited by the phone for a guy to call me. How you gave me butterflies even through the phone.

I'll never forget the casual way you said "You're pretty much my girlfriend, right?" a month later. How you jokingly suggested we make it facebook official.

I'll never forget the moment I realized you believed in Jesus. How you started to tell me what you believed and for the first time I really heard the gospel. How you started to change your life and how you encouraged me to seek Him out myself. How I gave my life over to Him on the drive to your house prompted by that silly song.

I'll never forget our college dates: Publix sushi and sherbet on the roof, watching the stars in the bed of your truck in your backyard, and the free art gallery and Sweeney Todd production at our college. How you always joked I was a cheap date since that's all I ever needed.

I'll never forget how I found the ring. How I called one of my best friends and asked her if I should open the box. How she said "HELL YES!" but I didn't because I knew you would want me to be surprised. How you asked my mom for my hand when I was in the next room. How I knew the exact day you were going to ask me

I'll never forget the moment I realized you were about to ask me. How you surprised me anyways. How you took a deep breath and looked me in the eyes before you got on one knee. How you tried to hand me the ring but I was so scared I would drop it in the water.

I'll never forget how beautiful our wedding was. Your face the first time we locked eyes. How you kept your jacket on the whole time even though it was so ridiculously hot. How we took that moment together to look around our wedding and take it all in. How it was over way too fast. How happy I was to be Mrs. Wifey.

I'll never forget how we flew to China the next week. How nervous I was to go to a country where I could barely even say "hello!" How we had to totally rely on one another. How we both grew so much there: in ourselves, in each other, and in the Lord.

I'll never forget the way you decided to do your job. The moment when she called to tell you it was official. How your whole family screamed in excitement. I doubt she'll ever forget that moment either.

I'll never forget our first Christmas here. How we decorated our tree and drank hot chocolate with marshmallows. How I finally realized we were starting our own traditions as a family.

I'll never forget how you chose me to pin you at your swearing in, even though most of your family was here. You'll never know how much that meant to me.

I'll never forget how difficult 2009 was on both of us, although I wish I could. How much stronger are we after getting through it. How I saw you turn from a guy into a man right before my eyes. How you stepped up for your family in so many ways. How you loved me through my faults. How you loved both our families through theirs.

I'll never forget when we decided it was time to add to our Family. How shocked we were when we got pregnant on the first try. How neither of us could drive to get extra pregnancy tests. How you wanted to work that night anyways since you had all that nervous energy. How you came home off a graveyard shift and brought a rattle for Reese, bagels, and a bouquet of flowers for me. How much you loved Reese from the start.

I'll never forget how you were there for me more than I thought was possible through the pregnancy. How you came to every single appointment. How you helped me not to to be afraid. How you cried when you saw her on the screen, just like I did. How excited you were for the moment when she would grab your finger with her tiny little hand. How you got choked up just thinking about it.

I'll never forget the moment when she grabbed your finger. Never.

I'll never forget the way you continue to tell me I'm beautiful even though we both know my body has changed so much. How it doesn't even seem to phase you. How you didn't even look sideways at me when I ate that entire container of chocolate covered peanuts.

I'll never forget how much you have taught me about myself. How I changed from a free-spirited party girl who wanted to live life like a rolling stone to a woman who wants nothing more than to be your wife and Reese's mother. How I never in a million years thought I would ever be a stay at home mom and certainly never the wife of someone who does your job. How now I can't imagine anything else.

I'll never forget how I married the lead singer of a band who thought he was a rockstar (ok, you totally were one). How you actually became a rockstar in your job, in your family, and in our home. How you showed me, for the first time, what a real man was. What a husband should be like. What a father is.

I'll never forget these, our first four years of marriage. And I can't wait for all the things that are coming that I'll never forget. Happy Anniversary, my love.


  1. What a beautiful story. Happy anniversary! :-)

  2. Way to make me cry! That is beautiful! So happy you guys have eachother. <3
    ~Connor's Mom

  3. I loved how you kept certain things private, but allowed enough information for us to follow along with the story!

  4. And that beautiful written passage defines what love is. Love is the little things, the honesty and giving completely to the other person. Love is selfless living. Love is committment. Love is seeing the soul of the person even if he or she can't look or feel beautiful in the moment. The soul is so beautiful, that is all they can see. Love is being a hero to your God first, then your family, then to others. True love doesn't only grows and grows and grows... And when you think it is impossible to love grows again.
    Happy Anniversary. I love you.
    Your mom, Gwen

  5. So I just read this at work and came thissssss close to crying! You're an amazing writer!
    Xo Emily

    P.S. Your baby is the custest baby ever!!

  6. I found your blog from Eat, Live, Run and just had to post a comment. This is a most beautiful letter to your husband, I loved reading it!

  7. I came across your blog via Eat, Live, Run--I especially love this post as I am coming up on my first wedding anniversary! Congrats on your beautiful family!

  8. Oh this is stunning. I have chills! What a pure, extravagant, exciting and true love you have! x

  9. I think I will be writing one like this on our anniversary its moving and tells your story, i love it! beautiful post! you look so gorgeous too!~

  10. Oh my gosh... what beautiful words! So happy to have come across this post. Makes me more grateful for my husband. :)

  11. Oh my goodness... what beautiful words! So happy to have come across this post just now. Makes me more grateful for my husband. :)