Friday, January 27, 2012

Lets Talk, Reese

Hey Reese... we need to talk. Well, I need to talk, you don't know how to talk yet. Before I had you, I thought I knew what it was like to be a mother. I would love you, of course. I would want to protect you, nurture you, help you become totally awesome like your daddy. I'd spend most of my days with you, as a stay at home mommy, but I would need time away. It would be hard to walk away from you, but once I was out the door, we'd be separate, and I'd be fine. I mean, mom's work outside the home all the time and they seem fine. I'd try to get away and have some me time every week.

Yep, I thought I knew it all.


But, turns out, I'm just not that kind of mama.

I haven't been able to be away from you for more than a few hours since you were born. Sure, there was a time when I had my priorities mixed up and was having a hard time just sitting in these moments and finding joy, but you were with me always. And that's how I like it. Going through life together while daddy is working... just me and my mini-me.

Remember when you heard mommy & daddy talking about the Creative Estates Retreat? Remember how mommy said a few of her favorite bloggers were teaching or attending? How it would be so much fun to meet these bloggers in real life after reading their blogs & feeling like I know them and pretending like they might have stumbled across my blog once or twice as well? How even though I'm not a crafter per say, I've been known to dabble in a project or two? How it was too bad daddy would probably be working and there was no way I could actually go?

Well guess what, Reese.

Mommy's going to Creative Estates.

Yay! I know, I was so excited, too. Daddy said he really wanted me to work it out, we figured out a back up plan for if he is working, and mommy got the very last ticket.

And then immediately felt guilty.

How could I justify the expense? Wouldn't you need me? What if something happened? What if you got sick or hurt? What if all the other bloggers didn't like me gosh that makes me sound like a middle schooler? What if I couldn't actually do any of the crafts?

But most importantly: how could I leave you and daddy for four whole days?

Yes, it's four days away. And I feel terrible about it. And totally excited.

I know you'll be fine. You have an awesome daddy who is so good at caring for you. He is already planning all sorts of fun things for you to do on your Daddy/Daughter Date Weekend. He is so so so excited to spend that time with you.

You will be almost a year old. I will make sure you have plenty of food to eat and plenty of milk stored up. I will facetime you and skype you and think about you every moment. I mean, how could I not? I promise to bring some fun projects home with me.

And don't you worry your pretty little head...before I go, I will make sure daddy knows all about your bows.


14 comments:

  1. hi! im so excited to meet you! and im so glad your little lady is OK with you going ;)

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  2. you are the sweetest momma! :) Really excited you're going!

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  3. Just came across ur blog I have a freind who will be attending.Her name is Katie.So wish i could go have fun!!!Now a new Follower!!You should check out my blog and maybe even follow also!!
    P.s. your daughter is so cute!!

    http://justthe3ofus-mary.blogspot.com/

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  4. First of all, your little lady is just too adorable!
    Second, it's so hard to leave them at home. I work twice a week, and still have not gotten used to leaving my little girl home w/ a babysitter :-(
    But making time for yourself is so important, and I'm glad you're taking some time to do something you love :-)

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  5. You are very brave! And very fortunate that you know your husband can handle the job! I think mine would crack under pressure!

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  6. this post was so cute!! and she is SO darling!

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  7. She's a doll! And you'll have such a great time at Creative Estates :) I just found your blog- we were both tagged by Lacee {Mommas Like Me} on FB yesterday. Your blog is adorable and I'm your newest follower! I'd love for you to stop by my blog and follow me back if you'd like.
    Have a great weekend!
    xo,
    Laurie @ Gallamore West :)

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  8. You've been tagged over at my blog!
    http://www.mommymandymusings.com/2012/01/ive-been-tagged.html

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  9. GO! I understand every drop of this... and 4 days is a long time. You can do it though! While you are irreplacable, and little 5ohbaby needs you more than anything in this world, you are giving her a gift. She will get to know and love and count on her daddy like she probably hasn't before! Recharge and enjoy!!!

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  10. you are the sweetest momma! and your little one is ADORABLE! have fun at creative estates :)

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  11. Just read this and I totally understand how you feel!! Exactly why I can't make a decision on whether to go or not!! Ugh!! I'm way to nervous about everything. lol.

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